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It is so unbearable for one sided love.
I’ve never thought my feelings for him is so strong which is much stronger than my feeling for DD. In fact, it is making me more or less missing him every single minute of my life,
But I kept on asking myself, for the past one year I did not notice him until our small trip. It is so weird because he has been right beside me without me knowing. My feelings now for him is still under control but at times, I do want to confess my feeling for him but I just know that things will not work out well if I do so. Especially I dont know whether he has the same feeling for me or he has some feeling that girl that I know.
Guess what? There are 2 people that I know asked me whether him and her hv feeling for each other , just by looking at the photos that I took few months ago. Is it weird? But my sixth sense never failed me.. always been right. I do have the same feeling like the other two! Gosh.. it is unbearable for me to have a failed relationship..
It is ME destined to be old maid? Each time I fall for a guy, surely there is a problem stored for me and things will not work out well for me.
Although I have sworn to get married by 30 years old when I was very young but yet, I think I am hoping that I will get married by 27 years old but yet, God has failed to lead me to a good guy. Why is it so? At times when I was alone thinking, I kept on asking myself if I didn’t work in that Bank, and not knowing him, will be any difference? If only I was recruited much earlier.. knowing him earlier.. will be any difference? Gosh… these questions will not end.
I guess, I cannot doubt what are the things stored for me by my beloved God. I know everything is perfectly stored me but I do hope there are clues for me to move on from here. I ain’t young but ain’t so old… Just hope that God will arrange a perfect guy for me and not wasting another few years just I did when I was in College and also after ALFK.
My confidence for a guy will come for him eventually but needs time to heal. I hope he is feeling the same for him if not, … I dont know what is my next step. Hehehe.. for sure, if everything goes well, he will be my 2009 plan. 
