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Yupz, I am going back to Raub in another 1 more day.. can’t wait for that day..
Neway, the time really flies and I am kidda not enjoying my golden time at home at all once I think about my new job. I can’t be complaining much since I have decided to move on from MAA about 5 months ago and I should be bearing the difficulties.
This year, I have made few stupid mistakes and biggest of all, was changing my job and involved in a relationship which do not have any outcome. Hahaha… at times I do find my stupidity covering my wisest action.
Haha… last Saturday didn’t turn out well. I also can’t complaint much and further more, it is a whole damn new year for and I will continue my unfinished objective for this year. This year I am not that active in travelling… well, the economy doesn’t allow much me travelling. Prepare for the worst.
I am not going to think much about anything but work. I will strive to work harder to love my job and stop complaining.
This year, I have to make some changes in my life. I also have enjoyed my life to the fullest last year and cannot be so childish in my action anymore. I have to be serious, had to be in fact. Hehe.. wait and see, there will be alot of difference.. time is my essence. God Bless Me..
This is my 2nd year without my late grandmama and surprisingly, I don’t feel anything compared to my previous year.
But she will not be forgotten.
Probably because I know that I am going back Raub this year for CNY celebration with my aunties from my father’s side. Haha..
Oh yah.. Me, sis and mother went back to Sentul to pray my late grandmother , mother’s side. It is our 1st year without her. Every year, on the 4-5th day of the new year, we will go backa and celebrate and she will be just at home. Well, she was quite old and physically unsuitable to move around. Only with the help of the maid and on the wheel chair. Worst of all, she halucinates.
My mother and auntie did take it well yesterday.. good job! I thought she will cry like we did last year. It is true that we didn’t “feel” anything when we were in Sentul. SURPRISINGLY!!
Like my mother said, we still feel “missing” (father’s side).. and don’t know why! Hahaha… 
Can’t wait to be home and pray my late grandparents on 4th day of CNY. 
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Yup yup.. another 1 1/2 day to go before the clock turn 12 o’clock… HAPPY OX NEW YEAR!!
Yeay… this year will be abit different because I am going back to Raub on the 4th day of new year!! Yupz.. only us, the sisters and brother in laws. Oldest sis gonna back on 6th because she has to work on the 3rd day..
I can’t wait to go back but how’s the atmosphere in Raub? Will it very happening or just like in Kuala Lumpur? Finger cross….
I hate my new look.
and definitely look like aunty. Aihz.. so regret with my own decision…!
Just like what happened when I decided to join my new company.. Here I am again.. regretting so much!
I couldn’t even sleep because I was worried about what my family members/colleagues/friends think about my new hair.
I hate my new hair style. aihz…
New Year gonna emerge in 5 days time but it is not surprise that I am not excited at all.
Yeah.. this year will be my 2nd year without my dearest late grandmama (father’s side) and 1st year without my grandmother (mother’s side). Yeah, lost both grandparents in less than a year if go by month..
I know that I should go back Sentul to pray my grandmother but mother did not ask, and we have no initiative to go and pray voluntarily. Haha.. We are bad but I am thinking of going this Saturday but I don’t know whether I can squeeze my time or not because this Saturday will be quite packed besides going to Yoga classes that day. I’ve got a special activity that day which make me wondering whether I will enjoy myself or not. See how it goes la.
Anyway, we all went back to Raub last Saturday. I felt so much at home when I arrived. As usual, the house lost its shine without my grandmama although I felt so much of her presence in that house.
Haha… also especially we all went to Yi Po house. Sis Wei said , she felt like crying when she saw my Yi Po. Indeed and agree with her that she does look alike like grandmama. The way she talk, the way she rubbed her eyebrow, the way she smiles… so much alike.
I remembered last week, when I was talking to Ling2 about my late grandmama’s last few weeks in Tung SHin Hospital. I almost cried in front of her. Holding back my tears … Probably I just miss her too much. Aihz… even sometimes, I still dreams of her although not that frequent like in 2007.
Haha.. I remembered my ah Gu told us that Fa koko saw one big and black figure standing in front of the place we pray our Gods and our ancestors. The moment he turn and look back, it disappeared. He want to see whether it is our grandmama. seriously, not many of us could let go the memories that we had.. not even our family but also my Yi Po’s family. We still talks about our grandmama.
Haha.. And my Ah Gu told us that she was scared when the clock turn past 12. She was scared because she worried grandmama come back to house and wait for us. Haha.. it is true that our grandmama always looking forward for us to come back when she was still alive and she always cries when we all have to go back KL.
Everything seems so different without our grandmama and misses the moment she lost her vocal due to 2nd stroke she had and until her passing.
Erm… KI KI bf’s mother has passed away because of stroke. Can u imagine, u could lose someone within a day? I don’t know how he will feel… if I were in his shoes, I will not be able to accept such death. I only able to accept my grandmama’s death after 6 months which is not really sudden death.
May God with the family and the soul is in peace.
Yup.. I bought 7 books this week..
Vampire stories. I am just too addicted to youngster’s books. I used to like historical romance especially Judith Mcnaught’s books i.e. Whitney my love, something wonderful etc. But now.. I am more into Dracula stories especially right after I fell in love with that dracula from twilight. Haha..
Surprisingly, those books aren’t that expensive compare to the adult books. Haha…
Neway… I’m just as too addicted to books just like my sisters. This is where I will improve my english and I am anxiously looking forward to receive my consignment from USA… twilight part 2-4. Hehehehe… 
I don’t know what happened to me lately.
I’ve got just too much to bear.
Yeah… I’m in deep shit. Guess what? I’ve completely let go my notion of getting involved in a relationship after that De De’s incident and the next thing I know, someone asked me out for a date.
Few days ago, I went out with Sky for dinner right after my meeting with my ex-colleagues in Mid Valley. I have much decided that I’m no longer interested to be with anyone. He made me realize something that I haven’t thought of.. COMMITMENTS…???
The very next day, someone whom I knew for the past 2 years, has again asked me out for a date. Haha… yeah.. I’ve rejected his request last time for movie and now, he’s on the move again.
At first he asked me out for dinner and later, he changed his mind and asked me out for movie as well. Well, I didn’t see him for almost 3 months since he was not working in the same department as mine.
Haha…to be honest, I was quite jealous when I saw a girl’s photo in his phone. I was quite but not extreme. Haha.. I guess, I just have the habit of looking into someone’s phone photos. I would never thought that I would be that jealous and … tested him whether he has gf. He said NO.. I was quite not convinced when he said so until my ex-colleagues been telling me the same.
Guess what? He is quite a recommendable by my friends.
So, I’ve decided to go out, at least this time. He has been in contact for the past months. At 1st, through smsses then later on.. emails. And recently online chatting but of course, he has been busy and never really got the chance to have a proper chatting session with him. Also partly due to my early sleeps that disrupted our conversation.Haha.. yeah..I loves to sleep early.
erm… his parents are in town. this is why he ddin’t ask me out for date this week and even me. I don’t know what’s gone wrong! Years ago, I would yearn to be with someone and now, I don’t have the “fire” since my failed relationship with De De. Is it too fast for me to move on? Took me almost 3 years to let go Anthony which I thought that I could be with De De.
And that too, also a brief relationship. We aren’t compatible and most of all, he has so many flaws that I could take it. He made it even worst when he said something nasty to me a day before 2009.
He has destroyed my New Year 2009 and I thought, I would have a bad year ahead of me.
For me, I don’t like to have bad incidences when I face a whole new damn year… and he did it!! I can’t forgive him and certainly quite sure that he is not the one. Even my ex-colleagues been telling me. At times, I still misses him quite alot whenever I’m in Gardens/Mid Valley. Those places we went to… but, I have to forget him for the moment he uttered the words out of his mouth.
Gosh,… I don’t want to destroy my sleep as well.. he is past and present and there are things still ahead of me.
As for me, I’m just back from Raub.
Went back and saw my Yi Po and she is so like my late grandmama. Misses her so much until I saw my Yi Po like my own grandmama. Haha.. and she has my grandmama’s behaviour and even the way she talks.
I felt like the burden has lifted off my shoulder after I prayed my grandmama. It’s been months since I prayed her.
I will be going back Raub this new year for.. probably 3 days 2 nights. I am really looking forward for this trip…
Just had a brief dinner with sky..
He has changed alot… probably for his gf. Haha.. he advised me so many things and talked to me alot on his relationship. He seemed happy and I am happy for him.
But I did open my nasty mouth and I have a feeling that he feels abit offended. Haha.. it was not my intention. I feel abit bad after I open my stupid mouth.
Overall, I am happy to see him and happy to see him so contented with his new profound love. Haha…
Neway.. I am going back to MAA and gonna see my closest colleagues of all.. Lucy and all those malay girls in motor division. I really miss MAA very much. Haha…darn.. I feel so excited.
I am keeping my mouth shut and not going to tell my MAA friends that I am coming. I want to surprise them. Hehehe…
I’m starting more relaxed with my new job.. probably I am abit adaptable to my own work liao.. haha…
My boss and mentor are so willing to teach me the knowledge that I have never had before.. understanding it now.. probably it is an advantage to me
I also just finished my 1st online assessment… on BRM. They call it online training but I prefer to call it assessment because end of the course, I have a cert to certify it. Hehehe… I heard that they have the online training every 2-3 months.
Probably, end of this month I can adapt to the new company and new job.
Nothing much in my mind lately but my work.. although I faced few issues that I might not be strong to handle it but I am confident that I can overcome it soon. I cannot do much but to refrain myself from doing something that I will at disadvantage situation. I always remind myself, if I ever do it, I will be damn STUPID.
